Why I've Been Gone and Saying Goodbye

I have recently taken a very unexpected hiatus from blogging the last two plus weeks, which was very unexpected from myself as well. Sadly, my grandma passed away and although I had a number of posts partially written, I did not have any that were ready to be published for a full week of posts and I honestly had absolutely no energy to try and get on a computer to write them. I want to share the posts still, albeit I had planned for the Christmas posts to be shared much sooner, but I didn't want to continue posting without sharing my loss. 

My grandma was unfortunately admitted to hospital 3 weeks before she passed away. We had arranged to get her home that same day and her death came very much as a shock to us all. I was at work the morning of her passing and I was so excited to spend the week after with her, as I had annual leave. I received a number of messages saying she wasn't doing well but as soon as they said it was looking like things were getting worse, I left work early and made my way to Yorkshire. Sadly, 15 minutes into the journey, my cousin received the most unexpected calls saying she'd passed away peacefully. I was truly devastated. 

I still haven't quite come to terms with everything and this passed weekend we celebrated her 90th birthday as a family, without her. I will never be able to forgive myself for not being there with her when she passed away. It was something I promised myself I would do this time, as I also missed my grandfather's passing too. It all happened so fast. The family is truly heartbroken and devastated.